will.u.be.with.me

[[Thursday, January 22, 2004]]

another boring day .. thanx God today dim screw up the prayer for the concert ... ass ... feel damn wad now .. still haven recover from my permanent sadness .. dun think i will ever recover from it ... dunno ... but ... today juz make her angry again ... damn it ... or should i say .. i dim do anything ... i am assumed to be the person who make her angry ... fuck off lah .. i am juz damn angry ... ain't she suppose to be understanding and caring ... but .. why she juz refuse to listen and understand wad i feel these dayz .. haiz ... though i tried my best to cover up my sadness in front of other ppl .. i carn hide it from myself .. i feel so lonely ... haiz .. i think the life is so ccruel to me lorh .. since young .. i almost got everything that i want .. budden now ... i juz want sth that does not need to be bought ... and i carn even get it .. this make me feel damn disappointed and feel damn loser ... haiz ... i haven being suan by ppl because of her .. well .. i dun really mind .. but they juz kinda becoming more irritating ... i still dunno if i should juz carry on with this ... sth i feel stupid .. but the next min i will tell myself to carry on ... i think now i dun even believe wad is call hard work .. so wad if u have put in ur hardwork ... i get NOTHING .. prac NOTHING in the end .. so wads the use of hard work ? it juz make urself more tired and sad ... fuck off lah ... ar ... i dunno wad else to say ... juz tell the gerz out there ... love the person who really loves u ... ok ... or else the world will juz loose another gd guy ... SiGn OfF ... LoSeR ...

william.lee.wei.yang
1/22/2004 01:47:00 am

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