it has been a real trouble for me to decide to go back to singapore or to stay here to continue studying

if i were to go back to singapore, i will have to serve ns but i will get e chance to stay in singapore next time but i wont be able to keep my foundation results to apply for university next time

if i were to stay here, i will need to give up my PR in singapore and they will most probably blacklist me and never allow me to stay and work in there next time but i will get to get my degree and probably masters or go to US from here.

its really troublesome right

the sole reason i want to go back is that i think i can't fit into the environment here i want to get some locals as friends and i will have people to chill with.but lately i have been observing the locals the teens are not very pleasant i guess.can't feel much of the "nice-guy" feeling.most probably they look down on we asian students too.

my life is also in a mess now the only things i do is go to school and cook and use the net doing nothing but trying to find someone to talk to or to find hilarious videos on youtube or something.i dont even study for my subjects

no motivation for studying

if i were to go back.my time here would be wasted i guess if i were to go back, i would have to do my A levels and to complete my SATs with high scores in order to apply for universities next time.if not my life is doomed

so what ? i want to stay in sg next time.but i also want to complete my studies here. how.can someone tell me?

i just hope that the singapore government would allow me to serve ns after i complete my studies here or hope that the ANU would allow me to be enrolled based on my foundation results this year after i complete my ns.

all i can do is to beg both parties like dogs and hope for a miracle.

i wanna go back to see

michelle kelvinkoh danie christina 409 2005sec4s OGo8 thats all i guess.

maybe the decision of coming here is already a mistake itself

but i shall make the best out of what i have NOW.